Am I just wasting my time fighting for us?
I love her so much but I’m the only one showing up. My family hasn’t spoken to me in months just because she’s Shia and I’m Sunni and we’re not married yet they act like I’ve betrayed everyone. My mom says I’m shaming us wallah I don’t know what to do. She says she loves me but every time we plan something her dad gets involved and she backs off. I’ve changed jobs moved closer applied for visas she says she wants the same things but I’m the only one risking everything. Last week I waited two hours at the airport for her to come with me and she texted at the last minute that her brother found out and she couldn’t. I sat there alone like an idiot. I can’t keep doing this one-sided thing but walking away feels like losing a part of myself. I’m so tired I can’t sleep I eat nothing my work is slipping. I keep thinking if I just hold on a little longer she’ll finally fight with me but she won’t. I don’t even know if she will ever be able to. Am I just lying to myself?