He's perfect on paper but I feel nothing?
We’ve been together 8 months. He moved in after 5 – which felt fast, but his family was pushing and my parents said it’s practical so we did it. He’s stable, clean, pays bills on time, proposed last weekend with a ring that cost exactly 3 months’ salary – he told me that like it was a rule. We have sex every Friday, 9:15pm, condom always used because he says we’re not ready for kids. It’s fine. Not bad. Just… there’s no pull. I don’t miss him when he’s gone. When he kisses me goodbye at the door I’m already thinking about my grocery list. He said I seem distant. I said I’m just focused. But honestly? I don’t know if I want to be touched – not because I’m upset, just because it doesn’t move me. My brother said maybe I’m scared of emotion because Germans don’t show it – but that feels like an excuse. When my mum talks about my dad she lights up. I don’t feel that. Is it me? Or is there something missing that should be there?