He’s perfect on paper but why do I feel this way?
We got married last year through arranged setup. My husband... he’s IIT, settled in Canada, kind, never raises voice. Family brags about how I hit jackpot. But inside, I feel... empty. Like something’s missing. He treats me like a guest, not wife. Always polite, never fights, but also never holds my hand or says ‘I miss you’. I keep thinking maybe I’m ungrateful. My mom says, ‘Beta, what more do you want? He’s not drinking, not beating you, doing job only.’ But at night, I cry and don’t know why. We share bed but it’s like sharing room with roommate. He says I’m overthinking. Maybe I am. But why does it feel like I’m living someone else’s life? I told him I feel lonely... he bought me phone and said ‘talk to girls from college’. That’s it. Like loneliness is just boredom. I don’t know if this is normal or if I should speak up before it’s too late...