They feel more real than anyone here... what do I do?
I’ve been talking to this girl online for like 8 months now… she’s from Canada. We met on a book forum, of all things. At first, it was just talking about novels, then late-night voice calls, then… I don’t know. It got deep. She knows things about me—like, really knows me—stuff I haven’t even told my own family here. My parents keep setting me up with girls from the province, all ‘good Catholic girls’ who cook well and go to church every Sunday… which is fine, but it’s like that naman eh, no spark. With her, even though we’ve never met, it feels different. Stronger. But I’m scared. People here say if you look outside, you’re just running away or being unrealistic. And it’s not even about leaving… it’s that I actually feel seen, ha. Is that even fair to her? Or to the girls here who actually show up in person? I keep asking myself if I’m just choosing a dream over real life… But what if it *is* real? Just… far away?