Am I supposed to keep begging for love?
I don’t even know where to start. We’ve been married 4 years, and from the beginning, it’s always been me showing up — me calling, me asking to talk, me crying for a connection. He’s distant, doesn’t speak unless I ask, and intimacy? Forgotten. I’ve asked so many times if something’s wrong, if he’s unhappy… he just says 'I don’t know' and walks away. My parents remind me every week that marriage is a duty, that walking away brings shame, especially without a real reason like abuse. But I can’t explain how it feels to be living with someone who sees right through you. I’ve tried everything — cooking his favorites, dressing nicely, even praying for guidance… nothing changes. I’m exhausted. I can’t sleep, I’m losing weight, and sometimes I just sit in the bathroom and cry... I feel like I’m disappearing. My brother says I should leave, but what will people say? What about my mother’s honor? What about the promise I made in front of God? I don’t want a divorce. I just want to feel loved… is that too much? I am dying inside.