How do I admit I never enjoyed sex?
weve been married 8 years and i just realized i never actually liked sex with my wife. from the start i smiled laughed pretended like i was into it because i didnt want to hurt her feelings or seem broken. she’s kind patient really tries to make it good but every time felt like acting in a movie where i forgot my lines. i thought it would get better with time but it just got harder to fake. last week she planned this whole romantic night and i cried in the shower after because i felt so guilty. i’m scared to tell her cause what if she thinks i never loved her or that our whole marriage is a lie. but i cant keep doing this i feel like a fraud & honestly kind of numb. i dont even know who i am without this mask. she deserves better but i dont know how to start saying the truth without wrecking everything. sometimes i wonder if i’m even capable of feeling that way with anyone. i love her just not that part