How do I move forward without feeling like I'm betraying her?

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We were engaged for two years — had the wedding planned for June, venue booked, even picked out stupidly matching socks for the bridal party. Then she got sick. Fast. 8 months ago she was gone.

I can’t bring myself to cancel everything — I keep thinking, what if she comes back? I know that’s not how it works but my brain won’t listen. I still sleep on her side of the bed sometimes just to smell her shampoo on the pillow.

My brother says I need to “move on” but that feels like erasing her. I loved her — still do. But I also don’t want to be stuck here forever.

I think I’ve always been anxious in relationships — always scared of losing people — and now the worst thing happened. How the hell do I set healthy boundaries with my own grief? When do I finally let go & start living again? Feels impossible.

Omar Hassan · Answer

Lost my partner too — sudden accident, no warning. For months I couldn’t even walk past the park we used to go to without losing it. I thought doing anything without her meant I was leaving her behind. But she wouldn’t have wanted me stuck in the grief. What helped me was writing her letters. Telling her the dumb stuff I knew she’d laugh at — like how I burned toast again or saw a dog wearing socks. Sounds weird lol but it made it feel like I wasn’t erasing her.

I also started going to a grief group at the community center. Not every week just when I needed to. Hearing others talk about loving again or laughing again without guilt — it made space for me to breathe.

You’re not betraying her by living. If anything you’re honoring her by not stopping. Keep the socks. Wear them when you feel like it. Or don’t. She’s still with you — not in the plans you made but in how you carry her now.

How do I move forward without feeling like I'm betraying her?

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