I left everything for him and now I’m empty
I moved across the world for my boyfriend two years ago. Left my family, my best friends, even my dog with my sister because I thought love was enough. At first it was amazing, we were always touching, talking, planning a life. But slowly he pulled back. We barely have sex now and when we do it feels like he’s somewhere else. I don’t know anyone here. I tried making friends but it’s hard when you’re 32 and everyone’s in couples or already settled. I applied for jobs but my visa’s tied to him so I can’t work legally. I feel stuck. I made him my whole world and now I don’t even feel like part of it. He says I’m “clingy” when I bring up how lonely I am. Last week I cried and he just said I should “go for a walk and clear my head.” Like that fixes everything. I miss who I was before I packed up my life for someone else’s. Sometimes I wonder if he even sees me anymore or just the version of me that moved here to be with him. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do I thought i was proving my love but now it just feels like i disappeared
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